All is here now . With the breath of presence streaming in the stillness of unity between All energies effortlessly. Time no time for everything & nothing is ever changing and eternal~ Zero Point.
Be
Breath In
Breath Out
Love Radiantly~
Wednesday, October 31, 2012
Sunday, October 21, 2012
The Lifestyle of a 'Kind Mind'
I would like to open up with a poem by Gloria Piper Roberson (Mamo) from Wenatchee, Wa.
" The heart breaks and breaks
And lives by breaking
It is necessary to go through the dark
And the deeper dark, not to turn.
~ Mamo
The significance of this poem provides a piece of the template necessary in cultivating a 'kind mind'. Change gets to be embraced on the deepest & yet simplest level. The capacity to continue allowing change to be there without resistance, fear or denial is huge for the peace of mind. Every breath of change has the desire to be seen and felt deeply for it is this depth that invites new beginnings with ease from the completion of the old. Unfinished business as Caroline Myss says is key in self-confidence. The should have's the could have's hinder the bud of growth from the core of our being. Finishing up from the past allows for all the bodies to unify bringing wholeness and expansion to all of life's experiences. The senses are heightened to more of their fullest potential with more space to create new life.
Today's process as it relates to the above is that upon waking up there are threads of sadness. I keep getting nudged to explore these feelings of emptiness & fear. I began seeing signs of the yesterday during an all day workshop, " Inward Bound" facilitated by "TheRippleFoundation.com" A local group formed with the intention of providing a safe container for personal transformation. The small signs were the words that came to me during questions to our group. I heard "stress, instability & darkness" These are quite useful clues in working with bringing light to the shadow parts. I reflected after class in a journal entry & then completed a self portrait mini painting. The colors in the painting were not as I had initially envisioned and yet presented key components as to where my energies were presently. Without judgement I hung it to dry in it's easel.
The initiating factor to the journal entry came from our exercise on inner guidance. We were asked to write a question down, narrowing it down to a few words as to something we would like to have guidance around. Immediately my present theme came, Stable Life. Going in and down, connecting & asking for assistance from my higher self as to an anecdote. In the exercise we were shown a slide show of images to assist in evoking our guidance. I practice this on a daily basis & this was quite familiar work/play as I dove right in with excitement. Many of the images were animals which I have studied their Native American medicine for quite some time. This was quite natural for me & yet I intended to be fully present without any past conceived meanings of the animals as to have a fresh look at the messages they were bringing. I began to notice after sharing in our group that the mind wanted to play, tricking me? Or was that my imagination working to enhance the guidance? Each animal began to draw me in to the point where I became it. I could feel their actions as I were the one. More to explore here.
The first image was the bear in winter snow walking with one foot up in air taking next step. The strength in his paws kept drawing me as if to remind me of taking slow powerful steps one at a time. Digging into the snow with his focused look forward spoke of going deeper within yet keeping my head up, forward and focused. The second image of our beautiful earth landscape of mountains over looking a lake with the reflection of the mountains clearly in it. This was confirmation that all that is ever desired is within and all around. The mirrors of life and from nature as to all our questions and guidance. The third image of an eagle's profile with the feminine eye looking steady into my soul. I heard the words remain steady, clear and focused on the desire. Thoughts of soaring high above all expectations and worry to see the non-personal aspects to life. Rising above all mundane issues will allow me more abilities to see the real questions in my life.
The following picture of the galaxy took that soaring even bigger than anything small in my world. This was expansion, infinite possibilities and trust in our vast connection to All. This brought the feelings of peaceful openings and freedom. This love continued in the image of a jaguar in the wild. He brought messages of facing all that is front of me now with unconditional love. Gently staring into my heart I felt so much love and tenderness. This is that love to give back to myself every day. Next was the deer, which is one of my totem animal guides since I was a child. A profile of a buck with his antlers strong and receiving spirit. I heard and felt 'stillness & listen'. Gently be aware he nudged. The last image was well suited for the ending as an owl was in flight prepared for an action of landing. My eyes were drawn to his enormous legs and their position. He said grab it, fly and land. Grabbing life's wisdom's fully in a graceful motion. I felt and heard the wings around my shoulders as if nudging & reminding me to open & spread my wings. Slowing down to speed up.
Life's full of messages every present moment where there are no attachments as to their form or timing. Allowing the mind to be kind by remaining open invites the magic into life. To not "know" is to know on a deeper level, this is where words of the heart are able to be heard.
Namaste~~
" The heart breaks and breaks
And lives by breaking
It is necessary to go through the dark
And the deeper dark, not to turn.
~ Mamo
The significance of this poem provides a piece of the template necessary in cultivating a 'kind mind'. Change gets to be embraced on the deepest & yet simplest level. The capacity to continue allowing change to be there without resistance, fear or denial is huge for the peace of mind. Every breath of change has the desire to be seen and felt deeply for it is this depth that invites new beginnings with ease from the completion of the old. Unfinished business as Caroline Myss says is key in self-confidence. The should have's the could have's hinder the bud of growth from the core of our being. Finishing up from the past allows for all the bodies to unify bringing wholeness and expansion to all of life's experiences. The senses are heightened to more of their fullest potential with more space to create new life.
Today's process as it relates to the above is that upon waking up there are threads of sadness. I keep getting nudged to explore these feelings of emptiness & fear. I began seeing signs of the yesterday during an all day workshop, " Inward Bound" facilitated by "TheRippleFoundation.com" A local group formed with the intention of providing a safe container for personal transformation. The small signs were the words that came to me during questions to our group. I heard "stress, instability & darkness" These are quite useful clues in working with bringing light to the shadow parts. I reflected after class in a journal entry & then completed a self portrait mini painting. The colors in the painting were not as I had initially envisioned and yet presented key components as to where my energies were presently. Without judgement I hung it to dry in it's easel.
The initiating factor to the journal entry came from our exercise on inner guidance. We were asked to write a question down, narrowing it down to a few words as to something we would like to have guidance around. Immediately my present theme came, Stable Life. Going in and down, connecting & asking for assistance from my higher self as to an anecdote. In the exercise we were shown a slide show of images to assist in evoking our guidance. I practice this on a daily basis & this was quite familiar work/play as I dove right in with excitement. Many of the images were animals which I have studied their Native American medicine for quite some time. This was quite natural for me & yet I intended to be fully present without any past conceived meanings of the animals as to have a fresh look at the messages they were bringing. I began to notice after sharing in our group that the mind wanted to play, tricking me? Or was that my imagination working to enhance the guidance? Each animal began to draw me in to the point where I became it. I could feel their actions as I were the one. More to explore here.
The first image was the bear in winter snow walking with one foot up in air taking next step. The strength in his paws kept drawing me as if to remind me of taking slow powerful steps one at a time. Digging into the snow with his focused look forward spoke of going deeper within yet keeping my head up, forward and focused. The second image of our beautiful earth landscape of mountains over looking a lake with the reflection of the mountains clearly in it. This was confirmation that all that is ever desired is within and all around. The mirrors of life and from nature as to all our questions and guidance. The third image of an eagle's profile with the feminine eye looking steady into my soul. I heard the words remain steady, clear and focused on the desire. Thoughts of soaring high above all expectations and worry to see the non-personal aspects to life. Rising above all mundane issues will allow me more abilities to see the real questions in my life.
The following picture of the galaxy took that soaring even bigger than anything small in my world. This was expansion, infinite possibilities and trust in our vast connection to All. This brought the feelings of peaceful openings and freedom. This love continued in the image of a jaguar in the wild. He brought messages of facing all that is front of me now with unconditional love. Gently staring into my heart I felt so much love and tenderness. This is that love to give back to myself every day. Next was the deer, which is one of my totem animal guides since I was a child. A profile of a buck with his antlers strong and receiving spirit. I heard and felt 'stillness & listen'. Gently be aware he nudged. The last image was well suited for the ending as an owl was in flight prepared for an action of landing. My eyes were drawn to his enormous legs and their position. He said grab it, fly and land. Grabbing life's wisdom's fully in a graceful motion. I felt and heard the wings around my shoulders as if nudging & reminding me to open & spread my wings. Slowing down to speed up.
Life's full of messages every present moment where there are no attachments as to their form or timing. Allowing the mind to be kind by remaining open invites the magic into life. To not "know" is to know on a deeper level, this is where words of the heart are able to be heard.
Namaste~~
Thursday, September 13, 2012
The Dance Within
It has been over a month since a post as life's process has merged into an amazing playground. The dance with the pain body was the process instigator to say the least. Vibrating in fear, attached emotions and lower sense of self led me to take a quantum leap. Feeding the pain body unconsciously attracted situations where I was confronted to truly shift or sink. I eventually chose to leap after having to drop to bottom once again. The core childhood issues of abandoment, rejection and betrayal were being mirrored in all relations. I kept supporting myself with weekly EMDR, Tibetan Red Tara chanting, loads of positive images, tappingsolutions.com, inquiry through Vortex Meditation Healing Training with Meg Benedicte~ Whew! All the tools that are embedded in those experiences and actions ignited me closer to wholeness. Now I feel the resonance of harmony throughout my entire being.
The Native American Shan tu & Red Tara mantra have held this pulse of stillness allowing for grace to be more prevalent. The shift really began to take off after an Empowerment Retreat from a Dharma Practitioner, Lama Padma. I purged a lot of old emotions and took vows to the path of liberation and Dharma.
A short time after this retreat I was walking after 43 days from Fasciotomy Surgery. The health professionals were speechless. No one had heard of Magnetic Field Therapy for Comminuted Fractures. I began working again after 2months and a few days. (Granted after too many hours on the leg it became inflamed again) Now, I get to watch the time on and off it more consistently. I got a little too excited and over did it. I am ot scheduled to see surgeon until the end of November, a wonderful sign!
Being the Wholistic Approach is to unite Mind, Body & Spirit in the work of being healthy, other interpersonal concerns have been a huge part of this process to Radical Recovery. More on this later~ This is where the true magic lie.
The Huge reminder: Ask the right questions? Starting off with the key word, "what" is so valuable in my daily inquiries. If and when I find myself asking "why", this is a red flag there is some avoidance/denial in my process. The shadow is near~
Know thyself~
Namaste!
The Native American Shan tu & Red Tara mantra have held this pulse of stillness allowing for grace to be more prevalent. The shift really began to take off after an Empowerment Retreat from a Dharma Practitioner, Lama Padma. I purged a lot of old emotions and took vows to the path of liberation and Dharma.
A short time after this retreat I was walking after 43 days from Fasciotomy Surgery. The health professionals were speechless. No one had heard of Magnetic Field Therapy for Comminuted Fractures. I began working again after 2months and a few days. (Granted after too many hours on the leg it became inflamed again) Now, I get to watch the time on and off it more consistently. I got a little too excited and over did it. I am ot scheduled to see surgeon until the end of November, a wonderful sign!
Being the Wholistic Approach is to unite Mind, Body & Spirit in the work of being healthy, other interpersonal concerns have been a huge part of this process to Radical Recovery. More on this later~ This is where the true magic lie.
The Huge reminder: Ask the right questions? Starting off with the key word, "what" is so valuable in my daily inquiries. If and when I find myself asking "why", this is a red flag there is some avoidance/denial in my process. The shadow is near~
Know thyself~
Namaste!
Tuesday, August 7, 2012
The Insights of Writing
Every day and Every Way, I am better and better.
As I edit my previous posts, more emotional baggage is revealed.
As I process them, growth feels my heart with more and more compassion.
More Love for myself and others rises. All respect to those who have been through
And Victor-ed through the muddy waters. May All beings Emerge like the lotus, with the beautiful and pure open heart.
Holding space for myself is becoming more graceful. The since of humor is growing from this state of being.
A huge key to accessing this ability with grace.
There are no enemy's in life, other than the mind clouded in the past.
Clearing the lens, seeing the light as feeling the energy is short of complete.
Be the Energy~
Be Love
All true nature is Love!
Namaste
As I edit my previous posts, more emotional baggage is revealed.
As I process them, growth feels my heart with more and more compassion.
More Love for myself and others rises. All respect to those who have been through
And Victor-ed through the muddy waters. May All beings Emerge like the lotus, with the beautiful and pure open heart.
Holding space for myself is becoming more graceful. The since of humor is growing from this state of being.
A huge key to accessing this ability with grace.
There are no enemy's in life, other than the mind clouded in the past.
Clearing the lens, seeing the light as feeling the energy is short of complete.
Be the Energy~
Be Love
All true nature is Love!
Namaste
Friday, August 3, 2012
In "Awe" of day 29's Miracles
This post begins with reflections from yesterdays self-care Case Study 7.29.12 and what lead to the amazing day. (7.28.12, breakdown to breakthrough) Rough Draft again :)
Briefly sharing this information as to get out of my thought loop, so bare withe me.
Yesterday was the first day in which I removed the bandage for nearly the entire day.
All the other days it was only removed for an hour before swelling would occur, unless there was ice on it.
I was recommended by my nurse to keep this procedure while the body trauma could heal.
There was ice on the leg for an hour "tops" from Noon til Ten pm.(10hrs. no swelling)
Before sleeping I began muscle testing whether or not to wrap before sleeping all night. This was
not recommended either, "Way to early in recovery stage for this, don't push your body". I wrapped it.
Within less than half hour, ache & pain. I asked my body what it wanted. It wanted to remain free of bandage and saying that this would be the only test to see if it was necessary. (showing the healing process was quite advanced than normal for this type of injury) I had to follow the body. I took off the wrap and returned to the leg only the Tachyon Knee Snug with extra Tachyon disks.
I woke a few times during the night, to the bathroom, due to the diuretic tea that I began drinking before sleeping. (more on this later) No swelling had occurred. (midnight & 2 am) Upon waking up this morning just before 8am, all looks close to normal leg again! Wow! Everyone had said this would take another few weeks at least. The nurse was already amazed that most of the swelling had been gone when she saw me on Wednesday. (luckily she is amazing & lives up the road. I reached out to her luckily)
There are a few practices that began in the last few days following 27 days of stress due to search for a home to recover, care-giver, counseling, pain-body reactions, PTSD triggers, etc. If felt that immediately upon taking the determined self-care and getting the professional aid that was obviously needed, miracles came pouring~
This incident, is a "blessing in disguise". I have been doing my therapy with Family Constellation and countless other modalities in search of freedom from a disorder disabling my life, PTSD (Post-traumatic Stress Disorder is a mental health problem that can occur after a traumatic event like war, assault, or disaster) I was diagnosed first in 2001, 2005 and again in 2010 by a Therapeutic Touch/Emotional Freedom Technique Therapist. Because of my current life path, therapy was not in my reach, as far as I was aware.
When PTSD is triggered, normal ways of relating to assist in this process are not enough and can actually increase the symptoms of this disorder. I am grateful to a counselor who offered her skills to me on Wednesday. I had hit bottom, literally. Flat on the cement sidewalk in Wenatchee, WA in search of her office. I was immobile and in panic flair up, overwhelm and despair. Another layer of myself revealed this day. Determined to grow, live in victory of childhood incest pain and freedom from this disorder kept me going.
This was a magical day. I went to practice the work of the Red Tara with my nurse. This was my first time to attend their Wednesdays at the Unitarian Church. Grateful beyond words. I will be going back on Wednesdays after counseling, as I will begin the work of Eye Movement Desensitization Reprocessing. This fairly new to mainstream counseling has been the most Radical Rates of Recovery in decades of therapy with war veterans, etc.
http://www.emdr.com/general-information/what-is-emdr.html
Now remember, this was reflections from Wednesday as well as yesterday.
Yesterday was the first stress free day out of a total of 30 days now, including today.
All the best results was the accumulation of Allowing myself to be in crisis, digging deep, stirring up old stuff, processing and finally getting professional help. The key is the last.
I have been suffering PTSD since I was 12yrs old.(if not at age 9 from the first trauma of incest) For whatever reason, the therapy I did receive (only 8months in 2005), the healing journeys I have taken were not what was needed. Like most coming from the trauma of incest, etc., the victims never speak. I held this to myself without telling one person until it had been over ten years. To this day, my mother is living with the perpetrator and in denial of how this as effected my life. So happy that this incident has brought up all that which I did not realize needed to get worked through.
There has been reactionary incidents with loved ones, friends, family and teachers. I am thankful to finally have relief with professionals trained with this very specific disorder. Thank You Janet, for your professional work. She is well trained in the approach for PTSD and was being in ways that gave support. Work with the victim comes later in the process, to ensure that I live as Victor and not attract more similar incidents. Proper treatment is in order to stop "triggering" and re-traumatizing. This is my message to anyone dealing with a loved one with this temporary set back and amazing teacher of self-love. It takes compassion and unconditional love. (nothing is personal when triggers come on.. victims are out of their body & have no way to rationalize even conscious tools to rise above this disorder)
This is more than a "personality" issue that has been effecting all my relationships, work, profession as a Holistic Health Practitioner myself.. This is the reason why I chose to stop building a practice here in Washington. I knew that clearing my own emotional baggage while struggling to support myself would pay off in the long run. I am learning~ and so blessed to be here NOW. Learning more self-care, and about the psychology of this disorder. In future I hope to be able to help others with this amazing teacher. I AM That I AM~ Being responsible for my actions is priority! Living and creating my reality vs. living from the effects of life situations. Free from this "labeled disorder" I am not IT.. I am LOVE! It is nothing more than my friend and teacher along this path of Radical Transformation. Asking for help never felt so good!
Namaste~
Briefly sharing this information as to get out of my thought loop, so bare withe me.
Yesterday was the first day in which I removed the bandage for nearly the entire day.
All the other days it was only removed for an hour before swelling would occur, unless there was ice on it.
I was recommended by my nurse to keep this procedure while the body trauma could heal.
There was ice on the leg for an hour "tops" from Noon til Ten pm.(10hrs. no swelling)
Before sleeping I began muscle testing whether or not to wrap before sleeping all night. This was
not recommended either, "Way to early in recovery stage for this, don't push your body". I wrapped it.
Within less than half hour, ache & pain. I asked my body what it wanted. It wanted to remain free of bandage and saying that this would be the only test to see if it was necessary. (showing the healing process was quite advanced than normal for this type of injury) I had to follow the body. I took off the wrap and returned to the leg only the Tachyon Knee Snug with extra Tachyon disks.
I woke a few times during the night, to the bathroom, due to the diuretic tea that I began drinking before sleeping. (more on this later) No swelling had occurred. (midnight & 2 am) Upon waking up this morning just before 8am, all looks close to normal leg again! Wow! Everyone had said this would take another few weeks at least. The nurse was already amazed that most of the swelling had been gone when she saw me on Wednesday. (luckily she is amazing & lives up the road. I reached out to her luckily)
There are a few practices that began in the last few days following 27 days of stress due to search for a home to recover, care-giver, counseling, pain-body reactions, PTSD triggers, etc. If felt that immediately upon taking the determined self-care and getting the professional aid that was obviously needed, miracles came pouring~
This incident, is a "blessing in disguise". I have been doing my therapy with Family Constellation and countless other modalities in search of freedom from a disorder disabling my life, PTSD (Post-traumatic Stress Disorder is a mental health problem that can occur after a traumatic event like war, assault, or disaster) I was diagnosed first in 2001, 2005 and again in 2010 by a Therapeutic Touch/Emotional Freedom Technique Therapist. Because of my current life path, therapy was not in my reach, as far as I was aware.
When PTSD is triggered, normal ways of relating to assist in this process are not enough and can actually increase the symptoms of this disorder. I am grateful to a counselor who offered her skills to me on Wednesday. I had hit bottom, literally. Flat on the cement sidewalk in Wenatchee, WA in search of her office. I was immobile and in panic flair up, overwhelm and despair. Another layer of myself revealed this day. Determined to grow, live in victory of childhood incest pain and freedom from this disorder kept me going.
This was a magical day. I went to practice the work of the Red Tara with my nurse. This was my first time to attend their Wednesdays at the Unitarian Church. Grateful beyond words. I will be going back on Wednesdays after counseling, as I will begin the work of Eye Movement Desensitization Reprocessing. This fairly new to mainstream counseling has been the most Radical Rates of Recovery in decades of therapy with war veterans, etc.
http://www.emdr.com/general-information/what-is-emdr.html
Now remember, this was reflections from Wednesday as well as yesterday.
Yesterday was the first stress free day out of a total of 30 days now, including today.
All the best results was the accumulation of Allowing myself to be in crisis, digging deep, stirring up old stuff, processing and finally getting professional help. The key is the last.
I have been suffering PTSD since I was 12yrs old.(if not at age 9 from the first trauma of incest) For whatever reason, the therapy I did receive (only 8months in 2005), the healing journeys I have taken were not what was needed. Like most coming from the trauma of incest, etc., the victims never speak. I held this to myself without telling one person until it had been over ten years. To this day, my mother is living with the perpetrator and in denial of how this as effected my life. So happy that this incident has brought up all that which I did not realize needed to get worked through.
There has been reactionary incidents with loved ones, friends, family and teachers. I am thankful to finally have relief with professionals trained with this very specific disorder. Thank You Janet, for your professional work. She is well trained in the approach for PTSD and was being in ways that gave support. Work with the victim comes later in the process, to ensure that I live as Victor and not attract more similar incidents. Proper treatment is in order to stop "triggering" and re-traumatizing. This is my message to anyone dealing with a loved one with this temporary set back and amazing teacher of self-love. It takes compassion and unconditional love. (nothing is personal when triggers come on.. victims are out of their body & have no way to rationalize even conscious tools to rise above this disorder)
This is more than a "personality" issue that has been effecting all my relationships, work, profession as a Holistic Health Practitioner myself.. This is the reason why I chose to stop building a practice here in Washington. I knew that clearing my own emotional baggage while struggling to support myself would pay off in the long run. I am learning~ and so blessed to be here NOW. Learning more self-care, and about the psychology of this disorder. In future I hope to be able to help others with this amazing teacher. I AM That I AM~ Being responsible for my actions is priority! Living and creating my reality vs. living from the effects of life situations. Free from this "labeled disorder" I am not IT.. I am LOVE! It is nothing more than my friend and teacher along this path of Radical Transformation. Asking for help never felt so good!
Namaste~
Saturday, July 28, 2012
How To Say No to Pain Killers/Meds
This has been the biggest lesson learned. How to deal with all sorts of pain, sober. I have heard nightmare stories from all types of people of their
recovery and all the opiates taken to get through the pain. Addictions
hard to kick and side effects. Enough childhood side effects, no
thanks!
I was given Oxycodone & Muscle Relaxers in the hospital for the two day visit and was off of them after returning home. I began an herbal tea for pain management. My vision got blurry which I found later was a side effect of M.Relaxers. The tea was not the easiest in the beginning to regulate. On day 5 the tea could not be made. This was a process in letting go of beliefs which resulted in another 2 day of Oxy. After this I was bawling and was determined to get the pain tea management down. "We" did it. I had an amazing crew of women preparing for me with instructions from a new herbalist teacher. He had training with David Hoffman and herbalist for over 20 years in Arizona. I am blessed, thank you Ronald!! Thank You Ladies for preparing and saving my whole body!
I was also prescribed an injection daily to prevent a blood clot which I did not fill. Warned by doctors that there were high risks in my case and insisted I at least take aspirin. I was forced to buy these meds which I still have bottles barely touched. I only took aspirin on the days I had no tea, 2 days total. I never had signs of blood clots, without their drugs
I drank Holistic Alternatives, herbal pain tea, every hour. This was also a natural aspirin, White Willow Bark. The nurses even a week later warned, " The herbs are non-standardized, how will you know how much and ...blah.blah blah.." My first check up with Surgeon, Dr. Rossi, "Phenomenal" as he looked at X-Rays and removed the staples. All was well. No swelling, like I had for 5 days before I began the high doses of Camu Camu, African Vitamin C. I took 3,000 mg daily~ I am still on that amount most days plus power tonic Shakes!
During this entire process, luckily I had learned a new kinesiology technique that worked for me. Amazing to find out what my body wants/needs at any given moment for any life-threatening question, just by asking it. I learned this through a Medical Intuitive working with me last year. Blessed!! I asked my body for how much pain tea, what body symptoms were trying to communicate to me. I learned to listen and trust by following messages.
This journey of Radical Recovery has been all about learning my body, getting to know thyself. No doctor or person can really know how to treat you like your own body signals. I know a lady that has been taking too much thyroid meds for a few years now. Her first check up after they put her on them, showed they were giving her too much. She was having symptoms and went to have it checked out.
I hope that everyone will learn to use this muscle testing and or take more responsibility for their health with preventive measures as well. If this is not possible there are professionals in Holistic Health, Naturopaths, etc in this field to test body for solutions in health concerns.Especially in cases where meds are prescribed without knowing what is actually causing the body imbalance. Every body is unique. We get to really learn about this~It can save lives and prevent irreplaceable side effects.
Are we questioning our Doctors? Are we challenging them to all the Holistic Treatments that have worked for thousands of years, or just going right along like we have no choice?
Living Limitless Life~~
Namaste
I was given Oxycodone & Muscle Relaxers in the hospital for the two day visit and was off of them after returning home. I began an herbal tea for pain management. My vision got blurry which I found later was a side effect of M.Relaxers. The tea was not the easiest in the beginning to regulate. On day 5 the tea could not be made. This was a process in letting go of beliefs which resulted in another 2 day of Oxy. After this I was bawling and was determined to get the pain tea management down. "We" did it. I had an amazing crew of women preparing for me with instructions from a new herbalist teacher. He had training with David Hoffman and herbalist for over 20 years in Arizona. I am blessed, thank you Ronald!! Thank You Ladies for preparing and saving my whole body!
I was also prescribed an injection daily to prevent a blood clot which I did not fill. Warned by doctors that there were high risks in my case and insisted I at least take aspirin. I was forced to buy these meds which I still have bottles barely touched. I only took aspirin on the days I had no tea, 2 days total. I never had signs of blood clots, without their drugs
I drank Holistic Alternatives, herbal pain tea, every hour. This was also a natural aspirin, White Willow Bark. The nurses even a week later warned, " The herbs are non-standardized, how will you know how much and ...blah.blah blah.." My first check up with Surgeon, Dr. Rossi, "Phenomenal" as he looked at X-Rays and removed the staples. All was well. No swelling, like I had for 5 days before I began the high doses of Camu Camu, African Vitamin C. I took 3,000 mg daily~ I am still on that amount most days plus power tonic Shakes!
During this entire process, luckily I had learned a new kinesiology technique that worked for me. Amazing to find out what my body wants/needs at any given moment for any life-threatening question, just by asking it. I learned this through a Medical Intuitive working with me last year. Blessed!! I asked my body for how much pain tea, what body symptoms were trying to communicate to me. I learned to listen and trust by following messages.
This journey of Radical Recovery has been all about learning my body, getting to know thyself. No doctor or person can really know how to treat you like your own body signals. I know a lady that has been taking too much thyroid meds for a few years now. Her first check up after they put her on them, showed they were giving her too much. She was having symptoms and went to have it checked out.
I hope that everyone will learn to use this muscle testing and or take more responsibility for their health with preventive measures as well. If this is not possible there are professionals in Holistic Health, Naturopaths, etc in this field to test body for solutions in health concerns.Especially in cases where meds are prescribed without knowing what is actually causing the body imbalance. Every body is unique. We get to really learn about this~It can save lives and prevent irreplaceable side effects.
Are we questioning our Doctors? Are we challenging them to all the Holistic Treatments that have worked for thousands of years, or just going right along like we have no choice?
Living Limitless Life~~
Namaste
There Are "No Accidents"
Physical Recovery is but a small part of healing from broken bones and injuries. The following is part of my emotional and mental healing process.
These past twenty~seven days have been the most challenging yet thought provoking times of my life. This path which I have chosen may seem on the outside to be difficult and for me part of divine perfection. We are all on our own individual journey yet connected as mirrors for one another. There are no comparing as we all have our specific roles to play. The intent of today's entry is to share diversity and the role adversity has in spiritual alignment. We are all unique in our own way. Connect to all in the heart with no separation, prejudices or judgments.
Cataclysmic events mark the evolutionary necessity in which some souls chose to reincarnate in this life. The location of birth, parents, physical body type and all experiences were chosen for rapid acceleration. This is noticeable in their diverse speech, dimensional awareness, walking, metabolism, etc..People of this type run on high octane foods.(Superfoods, tonics/elixirs) This intensity is most often too much for those they encounter, also for a reason.
Support of the world is not necessary, for they are "in the world, not of it" Adversity is the opportunity to reveal shadows of our personality to be worked out. Also when these events occur, an alignment is happening . Every day learning and acceptance to stay true to what is of value without compromising is key. All situations and people are my teachers. Learning to be the alchemist, transmuting All to love as the Spiritual Warrior.
Namaste~
These past twenty~seven days have been the most challenging yet thought provoking times of my life. This path which I have chosen may seem on the outside to be difficult and for me part of divine perfection. We are all on our own individual journey yet connected as mirrors for one another. There are no comparing as we all have our specific roles to play. The intent of today's entry is to share diversity and the role adversity has in spiritual alignment. We are all unique in our own way. Connect to all in the heart with no separation, prejudices or judgments.
Cataclysmic events mark the evolutionary necessity in which some souls chose to reincarnate in this life. The location of birth, parents, physical body type and all experiences were chosen for rapid acceleration. This is noticeable in their diverse speech, dimensional awareness, walking, metabolism, etc..People of this type run on high octane foods.(Superfoods, tonics/elixirs) This intensity is most often too much for those they encounter, also for a reason.
Support of the world is not necessary, for they are "in the world, not of it" Adversity is the opportunity to reveal shadows of our personality to be worked out. Also when these events occur, an alignment is happening . Every day learning and acceptance to stay true to what is of value without compromising is key. All situations and people are my teachers. Learning to be the alchemist, transmuting All to love as the Spiritual Warrior.
Namaste~
Wednesday, July 11, 2012
If you can imagine it, creation will follow~
Vitamin C is so powerful~
I took 1,160 mg of Camu Camu a superfood with there highest Vit C in power form for shakes. After 5 days from hospital release & my foot is still swollen huge, CAmu CAmu took hours and no swelling.
Now the splint wrap is so loose due to min. swelling. I am going to have it rewrapped a week earlier that due to see the surgeon.
I really don't think they thought the swelling would decrease that much, it's amazing. I muscle tested for getting an injection of Vit C from naturopath. This Camu Camu tested just as effective~
So anyone with high inflammation..check it out~ Aloha~
I took 1,160 mg of Camu Camu a superfood with there highest Vit C in power form for shakes. After 5 days from hospital release & my foot is still swollen huge, CAmu CAmu took hours and no swelling.
Now the splint wrap is so loose due to min. swelling. I am going to have it rewrapped a week earlier that due to see the surgeon.
I really don't think they thought the swelling would decrease that much, it's amazing. I muscle tested for getting an injection of Vit C from naturopath. This Camu Camu tested just as effective~
So anyone with high inflammation..check it out~ Aloha~
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